A New Start

YYYYYYYAAAAAAAATTTTTTTTTAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA :D!!!

2010-08-07T01:00:00.000-07:00

OMG!!!! We finally finished the Maths proj! After all my stupidness, what the hell?! Anyway, I feel happy that we finished it and we have to present it during the next assembly and during a Sept. competition. ^____________^ Now i just need to show to my dad and oh ya, i have to check the script too.

Now that's done. It's time to study!!! T.T 3rd term is coming less than a week and I havent start study! D: But no matter.加油!!! 加油!!! Let's work hard and do this thing. I'm aiming for improvement in my grades and position. *oh ya dont forget that mobile deal that mom was about to give me :D*

Well, so much to do now! study time! 加油!!! 加油!!!

think before you do :)

demotivated

2010-08-05T08:05:00.000-07:00

well, this afternoon there's a motivation talk for the Yr9Sci. It wasn't very motivative to me. I wasn't that happy with it cos I wasted my time there D: anyway, in short it ''demotivates'' me.

today is alright. 21 of my classmates joined the Westpac today so we have like free periods, almost free for abt 2 hrs :).

tomorrow got the 中国尝试比赛。Just got to see my luck. Actually it's a waste of time. and then we have to do the Maths proj. ahhhh hope we can finish it by tomorrow b4 2!!! 加油!!! and then go BM tui for 3 hrs. WAAAAA!

That's all for me now. Gotta finish karangan and study for 3rd term! 加油!!! ah!!!

:)

Don't take things for granted.
Be patient :D

everything's gonna be ok, right? :\

2010-08-03T08:26:00.000-07:00

Hello bloggy, today's a Tuesday but there's no assembly bcos of ICAS Maths. Our form tcher had made a new seating arrangement for us and my new seat is right at the back =.= well, I don't like to sit at the back doesn't mean that I can't. I just need to get a little used to it, that's all. EXCEPT for the prefects who keep on swearing like at my North, East, South, West direction.

And then this morning I had bfast at home and I accidentally chew my left jaw again orh. WTH! I've been so careful already!!! and now, it's all swollen inside, I'm even having a hard time closing my mouth! Now I don't know if I should eat breakfast tomorrow. But tomorrow is WED! That means I need more energy in Physics, CHEM and BM. TT~TT.

Overall, today's not as bad as previous days. I've been busy with so many activities and now 3rd term exam is SMILING :) at me and looks so happy :D that i havent started my revision yet! =_=

I have got so many things that I can do! Draw, read, study, so many things that I want to do are all taken by those stupid never ending projs. wuhuuuuuu. cepat cepat finish this PRYNSA and maths proj so tht I can focus on the things that I want to do!!! >< style="font-style: italic;">from mdm Wee: 对自己要有信心 :)

:) Daijobu.

feeling cool :)

2010-07-31T23:24:00.000-07:00

I'm still doing the maths proj. grr. darn proj. darn competition. It's wasting my time. I don't think I　can even get a 3rd. Our group's presentation was chosen. darn it, why me???

I miss drawing
I miss Ichigo
I miss watching BLEACH
wuhuuuu :( and 3rd term is coming!!!aiyoooo. 怎么办?!?!?!?!

gotta finish my proj. 1st.
later!

D: stress

2010-07-22T08:58:00.000-07:00

I'm feeling so stress right now till I really wanna cry out loud D; My last week's hmwk haven't even finished yet, and now there's this whatever Maths proj needed to be done too. I wanna finish the Maths proj as soon as possible, but then I dont know why? it's like 做又不是，不做又不是。Now, I'm just finishing up my bio hmwk T__T

Saturday, I have Bio & Phys, ALAMAK. I have NO EYES to see already. Tomorrow morning I have to go to school for 1hr for the whatever exam on the China History. Well, I'm gonna do the ini-mini-minimo part, I dont even think I can even get a consolation prize. It's all about money yo! HATE IT!

I'm really impressed by Xu Ru. I really wanna solute her. SERIOUSLY! Her attitude, her person, her spirits, ohmygod, she's really perfect in my point of view. But no matter what, I still can't be like her. Because I am me. I am still ''under-construction"in building up my perfection. Xu Ru, you really are truly amazing.

Well, i think i better finish everything 1st then blog some other time. Bye.

:(

2010-07-17T04:36:00.000-07:00

I've been very busy this July. All is PRYNSA, homework, PRYNSA and homework. I feel like getting drunk and say out all those depressing feelings in me.

I'm waiting for the food that will never come.

I'm in love with a 2 dimensional anime boy who can only talk in tv =.= seriously, am I that sad?

I've been forgetting things real easily lately, I dont know why.

I wish I could travel around the world and try the things that I've never try before....

I wish for the impossibles....

waiting :\

2010-06-29T07:51:00.000-07:00

I'm waiting for the zuo wen '惜取少年时' from teacher. after that is copy..........copy copy copy and then sleep. ;( Thursday got POA test, Satruday got A+ Maths lagi?!?! T.T wuuuuuuuu>.<>

It's been a LONG time, since I went blogging. Well, just now when I was doing my 惜取少年时,my dad was talking abt CCA. Because the SPN students are going to have their exam, so they are not going to CCA anymore. So the Chess club only left 1. And my dad added ChuaCW didnt came too. Why? Because he stayed at home STUDY. that's what my dad replied to me. =.= 'And that's why he can get the 2nd in class. Aren't you jealous?' I forgot what I told him but I remember I do answer his question.

Well, dad, I'm not like CCW, who CAN always put his whole person to study study study x infinite. AND MOREOVER, I'm not him. He's he and I am I. I'm active in dancing and stuff and he's more to study that's all. Yeap, I dont have what your so called "KIA SU". I dont know la. Just because he got the 2nd, it doesnt mean EVERYTHING you know? Anyways, my point is, we both are totally diff. person. By looking at my lifestyle and his, we are totallly diff. ok? you cant expect me to be like CCW, 24hrs study non stop.

So PLSSSSSSSS stop comparing me with the others who have a high position in my class =_____= I had enough in my WHOLE SCHOOL LIFE SINCE I was primary -_____-. Give me a break!

I'm trying my best this term to be as studious as possible*except for today, I have completely loss myself ('___')* so please dont pressurize me, dad. T.T

weird?=.=

2010-06-06T07:09:00.000-07:00

why do ppl keep on saying bored when they ACTUALLY have something that need to be done? and then when school reopens, they will complain like what?! 'Aiya, i didnt have time', 'so busy', 'how to do? we dont know of course we didnt finish la'

you know, you yourself can ask tcher. teacher has told you that u can find their email add in the moodle-thingy and ask them if u got any prob. seriously, i can't stand it la. Some of us are like busy till hell, and yet we still see the others posting 'I'm Bored!' then find something better to do in the holidays la=.= sheesh. Well, I'm sorrrry if you get offended. that's what i can't stand it anymore. You got something better to do. ok?ok.

happeh babeh!

2010-03-11T23:59:00.000-08:00

wow, it's been months since i continue blogging again. It's in the middle of march, wow, time really flies. Previously having Chinese New Year and in the early march i just finished my 1st term! I just hope that my Bio, Chem and Physic will get good marks or even pass la at least :( if not, I'm gonna enter the world of Y9Art1 ;( you can't imagine the scenario in there.

Today, i feel super happy. Firstly, I could sleep as late as i want :D. Then i went to change my specs because the glasses broke as i accidentally fell it onto the floor :( I told my parents that I just wanna change the glasses but they insist me to change at the same time to buy another frame--this time it's full frame. my dad chosen a pair which are quite nice. But after looking through every type of frames, finally i picked the one that my dad chosen for me. The specs look great on me :D.

After "breaklunch", we went to popular. And i f inally bought the book that I've been longing to have! it's called 《天使与主人》 I'm not sure what it's abt so, I'm gonna read it ^__^ Since the day my maid went to somewhere else to work, life has been quite tough on my parents and me. Sigh... but now, I shall get used to it, besides I have to get independent somehow. Oh and I'm addicted to BLEACH :D I fell in love with an anime boy-- Ichigo Kurosaki and I just watched ep 15 part 2 a day ago ;((( i really wanna watch it constantly but somehow the loading is too slow =.= Here are some photos, enjoy :)

found it on the table :D

I looked more like a man =.=

Love them all. well gtg blog readers. See ya.

BUSY TILLL?!??!?!

2010-01-16T00:29:00.000-08:00

I've been very BUSY
THE ONLY THING I CAN SAY IS BUSY!!! My god!

that means i can hardly go blogging and will be VERRYRYRYRYRRYR LAZY to blog -__- ZZZ

god, please help me. I think i dont have any choice!

aiya till here, VERY BUSY maybe FOR THE WHOLE YEAR!

and i cant wait for CNY!!! ^___^

THIS PIC TELLS IT ALL!

1st day of school

2010-01-04T04:56:00.000-08:00

well, let's see 1st day of school already got hmwk. That's biology. And during english class we got to introduce ourselves which is the lamest part of alllllll. And i was lucky(i think), that i didnt get to introduce at the first place but at the end i still did it. The reason why? It's because eng teacher accidentally cancelled my name instead of hui yuan cos she has transferred to St.John. D: that's surprising! oh well good luck to her then.

I noticed something just now, my classmates all can swear really good. lol. impressive hhahaahahaha. TRUE! but the on swear the most is currently ckk. Because in his every blog or even when u talk with him there must be a foul word. =.= seriously, even i couldnt swear so much(unless i'm hell mad).

9.38pm just finished a part of my physic notes, i still got one more part and off to print and type exercises! cant wait. I've been nose blocking for a long time and it's quite suffering TT__TT i hope one day can go to see the doctor AGAIN. This problem is very torturing >:( darn it.

I'm gonna be good this year :) I'm gonna study hard, exercise hard, and work hard in everything. well i got to try. till here then.

byee

tomorrow's back to school

2010-01-03T04:24:00.000-08:00

I'm so pissed off just now. NO, I AM SO PISSED OFF TODAY! :@ why? cos i'm being tortured. the worst is that my school bag kena wet by my bottle which i dont know how it accidentally just spilled some water and basah most part of my school bag :@@ so damn mad until i swear so loud! I just hope no one heard it. But for sure I screamed loud errrrrghhhhhhh so damn mad. But right now, it's finally dry and my mom's hair dryer is burned inside =.=

And in addition, I am quite sick of my nose being allergy to dust and then it's blocking my respiratory system bcos of the 痰. WHY?! I dont want to get sick like this again, ESPECIALLY when it's an important day tomorrow!?!!!!!!!!! I swear alot today =.=

Yeap, I'm gonna go to Year 9 Sci 1 , HOW HAPPY, not! I got to spend my form4 with those juniors. Yes, at 1st i thought year 9 is f4 but ppl i told u many times that they do not have f3 ANYMORE. yr 9 is f4 (which is SOOOOOO not fair -.-) But i cant change anything now. I just need to work harded for it. No more liking or loving boys Xp
No more being sesitive
No more being coward
I gotta be STRONG!

I saw alot of ppl in fb and they are right, I do need to do less blogging for a while.

well, gotta sleep early...

Feeling pink ;p

2010-01-02T20:55:00.000-08:00

This morning finished cleaning my desk and my study area. It was so dusty! A few hours later, my parents just lectured me AGAIN?! Saying that I should read more news. I know it's the truth but i hate it when they just suddenly pop up like that u know -.- This started when I asked them what's so tall? Then i got a little pissed off(bcos of just now) and it's a new building called the Burj Dubai. They said it's even taller than the Taiwan tower 101. Anyway, It's the tallest building in the world and it will be opened on Monday.

Speaking of Monday, tomorrow is back to school day. Hooray? i think so. I just hope that I'm can wake up at 6. OMG?! I FORGOT TO TIE MY TIE?!?! Well, do it later. I have taken some pinklish pictures using my mobile phone here they are

pink files

I've got a lot of colourful-covers de notebook and I have no idea how to use it :S

till now bye!

where are all the books?!

2010-01-02T04:30:00.000-08:00

It's saturday, and 1 more day till school reopen! excited, well i should be. I feel emotional again, should be that thing almost coming again.

Today, I've got a new phone no. SO, my Nokia 5800(up there^) is officially mine :D but there's so many conditions I which I'm lazy to blog them out.

I can't seem to help myself. So i decided to ask them through facebook and i had my ans. Began slowly. And I will :) At evening, I was started to get really pissed off with no stock of the books. I still got Add Maths and Maths 4A wb and wherever we go, there's no stock! Not even a shadow of it =.= some are worse, you can hardly find any F4 books.

Tomorrow, more notes to make!! and then exercises to make and do OMG. I tried to draw a bunny hours ago, but FAILED !!! All looked so cacat =.=. I'm gonna try out my phone's camera to see how it works ;p, maybe tomorrow, since it's late now.

well, gtg check out facebook. Byee.

empty

2010-01-01T17:25:00.000-08:00

I've been empty for a year. Yesterday I miss Ngah Yuk, Jennifer and Britney. It's been a year and i decided to tell the truth on monday recess. I decided to tell them I'm sorry and I want to be close friends again like we used to. But I'm so afraid that I couldn't tell them by that day. But if I dont tell them, I will be a coward and never face Britney or face anyone. I just dont know what to do!

But I still gotta do it. I just need to take a deep breathe and say it.

"I wanted to tell you is... I am sorry, I am really sorry, for EVERYTHING. Can we be best friends again, like we used to?"

It's easy to type, but it's hard to say it out. I'm feeling difficulty in breathing, my heart is pumping in a weird pace :(

I watched Dibo the Gift Dragon just now. And i so wish to have a truth-megaphone. It tells the truth no matter what you say into it.

Now, what i have to do is to think a proper way to tell them that and look into their eyes to say it. MAN, DO I HAVE TO PRACTICE THIS KIND OF THINGS?!?! :S but i gotta do smt. Bcos I'm tired of being empty in the inside and have no one to have fun with. I just miss those days.

Happy Birthday to me :|

2009-12-28T03:28:00.000-08:00

28 Dec
Today is my birthday and it is just like an ordinary day with birthday wishes. My cake and presents(hopefully there is/are any) are most probably have by tomorrow. I dont really like it when i can eat my cake either before or after my birthday. It doesnt make my day special. I dont feel like becoming a 15 yrs old :\

And in addition, i don't feel pleasant today. I was being lectured by my mom from morning, probably most of the day >:( which i really get soooooo pissed off! and i thought eventho i wont have a bday cake today and should be tomorrow, I feel kinda upset for the whole day.

I dont know if I'm ready for what's gonna be next year >~< cos it's a new challenge and there's not much of good luck :'(

birthday wishes:
i wish
1. for world peace
2. next year will be a better year in everything
3. get better results ^__^
4. study hard
5. play hard
6. for not falling in another smidge of love ;)
7. love all my girlfriends <3
8. that I could handle things in a calm way
9. to have a new phone. hehe :D
10. all the dreams i made come true
11. that i can cook TT__TT
12. 13. 14. 15. I WISH ALL MY WISHES COME TRUE!!!

:(

2009-11-09T16:14:00.000-08:00

it's a Tuesday morning, and I feel terrible since last night. I feel sour for the whole night and this morning, I woke up and turn on my comp just like that. Yup, I'm desperate.

Reason:
I kept on telling myself that why should I hold on to someone who always play with girls heart? Why should I even cry for a boy who doesnt even worth to cry? I've been thinking again and again, am i jealous? Jealous of yesterday's comments on the photo that my classmates and I took in front of the musuem. Yup, i answered to myself, I think I am.

But why??? Why do I have to be so jealous abt it? I deleted the comments and that's it that's it! You deleted them, they are gone forever. But still why? For sure he does not like me anymore like he used to, so why am I holding on? Why do I even feel so sour? god, this is unfair!

i'd swallowed the sourness and the bitterness into my heart, should be my heart. After a half good night sleep, I feel better, maybe still worse, at least I wont have tears flowing out like waterfalls.

Now, I feel anger and I feel like deleting the photo. With a second thought that pop into my mind, if I deleted the photo, ppl may ask why, at the same time, they will get dissapointed(BUT I REALLY WANT TO DELETE IT, SHIT!) Just because of those f**king comments and I delete the whole photo doesnt worth. I just feel messed up and i feel like vandalism :(((((((((((

I've got so many problems in my head, and noone will never know even if i told them, for sure they wont understand it.

Song of the Day: "Gravity"

2009-10-18T20:18:00.000-07:00

A blink of an eye, PMB was over. We as the last batch had done our public exam. Haiz... I just hope we will have a good result :)

This morning I woke up at 8++ and I had a drem again. I dreamt Si Yee and Wing Tong were crying o.O and then I dreamt of "fatty" like...*clearing throat* flirting me.=.=.=.= and I had no idea why was I wearing my PJs to school. ahhahaahaha

Anyway, I woke up had breakfast. I spent almost the whole morning cleaning up my place. I couldn't do it yesterday cos my aunt, my cousin's family were coming. I have a new nephew! ^^ I feel so happy! and and he is soooooooooo CUTE! He is sooo adorable ^^ since yesterday I already starting to miss my relatives already :(((

later i'm gonna have dance practice, yay me. And I have a stack of papers that are so PURE CLEAN that I have to do it =.==.= a long long holiday for me eh?

why is the Internet so slow? I m gonna head to my games now. Blog next time.

A Day Off

2009-09-09T23:59:00.000-07:00

I've finished my mock exam. I cleaned up 45% of my study place. Meaning I'm gonna have spring cleaning after PMB. And most importantly, i gotta feeling that i won't have a good passing mark for all my subjects :( Because I didn't put a lot of effort in it.

Well, now it's just a temporary day off. I'm gonna continue study like MAD later on. I don't know what's up with me. I couldn't think or study properly during the exams :( I just don't get it. It's like something in my brain is covering or just "jamming" or stuck in my head :S so confused....

:S these days, i thought of somethings. Things that i've done in the past past past few years. and I feel lik a jerk :( a total jerk :( I just wanna say sorry to ALL my friends. Really, really sorry.

Now, I'm gonna change my blogskin and stop blogging. Blog after PMB :) I'llmissyou...

Dear Diary

2009-08-12T03:48:00.000-07:00

Dear diary, today or just now, I appologized to her using facebook. Is that consider as bad? good? okay? alright? or not?

will she forgive me?! I just wish she will. I have no idea what she will be thinking and I 100% have no idea what will she feel when she received it? Will she forgive me? Will she get mad? what is she won't or..don't forgive me? What if we're gonna be like this? what should i do if she forgive me?! What if she doesn't?!??? how? what if???? this are all the questions that's in my head... :(

what if....she think it's a joke? what do I do when she reject my apology? what to do? what to think? how what why?!?!?! TT..TT I just don't know what will happen...

59 days to go..

Day 1

2009-08-10T02:39:00.000-07:00

yeah, I recalled what i kept on asking myself
1. Try to talk to him
2. Start a conversation
3. Ask how's it going?

I recalled everything I thought, and i realized i've been thinking of this 3 things for like almost a year now. And I have not put it into action. Why?! Reasons:
1. Probably I'm feeling nervous
2. Afraid that he will get annoyed to the questions i asked
3. Feared that he will get mad with me
4. Feared he would get irritated with me.

these are the lame reasons, LAME REASONS. Now that I've known something that I can't even believe my ears from last week till TODAY.... I feel mad and I give up. I give up to try to talk to him. I'm getting sick of it. I'm getting sick of not moving on. I'm tired of stucking in my old place and won't let go. I AM JUST TIRED OF IT.

Yes, I'm being straight here. You can say, I haven't move on. Just crap. Why is it so hard to forget him? huh? why? I just don't get it.

I DONT BELIEVE IT AND WONT BELIEVE IN YOU

2009-08-08T04:48:00.000-07:00

You don't need and have to say that you have cried yesterday on facebook and tell everyone in the whole world. You're a boy, be a man.

Plus, you dont even have to say you have cried yesterday. I feel like you're just trying to get attention. If you really feel sad and cried yesterday, just keep it to yourself, and tell your close friend about it. You don't need to spread the word and tell everyone abt it.

i just cannot accept it, believe it and trust it. And I'm on my own now. You wont see me trying to know every news about you anymore. And I will go on my own. I don't need you to be stronger, i dont need to tell you that i have move on just by talking to you. Cos, it doesnt worth and i won't work

Cardcaptor Sakura will always be in my heart :)

2009-07-06T03:13:00.000-07:00

yup, i feel much better whenever i listen to cardcaptor sakura's song and search for it's pictures :) it makes me feel being loved again. I wonder when will I find my Syaoran, guess i will ever know until then.

I will just quickly finish my post and study!!!

Well, today school has finally reopened. We are back to school now. And I have to wear a mask. It's a difficult situation, but it's alright. well, we all have to check our temperature when reaching the school. When I was going to check my temperature, there were so many tchers, that I felt weird. :S so many of them and there was only a few students coming (from the back gate) but then afterwards, the no. of students went up and tchers were all getting busy.

School is same, except that i was wearing my mask, so it's so difficult to breathe in class X,X and i found out that, whenever Joshua is not in the class, the boys really do keep quiet. I dont know why? it's like he has the power or smt? o.O

and then, I have spent the whole afternoon finishing my hm/wk =.= i just dont get it why do i need the whole afternoon to complete it? -.- oh well.

Cardcaptor Sakura ..... *.* i am just so inlove with it.

there's a song called "Knocked you Down" by Keri Hilson ft Kayne west and Ne-yo. It aint that bad.

well i have alot of things to do now. so TTFN :)

jealousy? kindayes

2009-07-02T03:44:00.000-07:00

i spend so long in this blog. i wrote alot of words of my heart but i Backspaced it again.

i felt jealous. Jealous that I ain't like other girls. Smarter, prettier, useful, open-minded, know what they are doing. But jealous doesn't lead me to anywhere but a dead end. I can't be perfect all times that's what ppl said.

I just want my oldself back, is that so difficult? I dont want to think about boys, anger, love and all those things which keep on lying to me. I just wanna wake up!. I am opening my eyes big and wide and yet I cant seem to wake up. Why is it so difficult to go back who you really are? I never want love and never will. I must get going and leave all the rest in its place. No where but itself in it's original place.

I just want to be myself. Like all the other ordinary girls who can go on happily and laugh out whenever they like and no one will think that it's strange.

i'm almost done

2009-06-25T20:30:00.000-07:00

i'm almost done with my science project. Just left me and si yee to practice the presenting. Well, this morning, i was opening my msn and suddenly i saw nurrisa's pm saying "RIP MJ!" i was so surprised. Michael Jackson has passed away :( i can't believe he passed away just like that. Whenever i thought of Michael Jackson, i thought of what my dad told me. He came to Brunei once and performed in Jerudong Park. :( unfortunately, i was still like abt 2 years old? and i dont remember a thing. Man! real life in Jerudong Park. My dad, my mom and i were there and i dont even have an image he was performing in Jerudong Park D: we all wont forget you, King of Pop. :( then i was wondering when did he pass away?! the radio then gave me an ans, around this morning :( he died in LA. even the DJ sound sad.

the water since last night till now, SUCKS! there's still no water! so i have to go to the teacher's wash room to wash up. Unluckily, when i was almost done, Mrs Foo came to the wash room. I was hoping that she wouldnt go to the wash room =.=

now, i have to continue finish my science project and study dengan hardcore. :D

sometimes boys in our class are so useless >:(

2009-06-25T04:27:00.000-07:00

ergh, why do boys nowadays are like so lazy, so damned useless? especially in doing projects in groups. ergh, if you are with the wrong boy then it's a headache. Now my sci project left only alvin didnt do anything. I thought these boys in our class are realiable.

i thought they can be depend on, can be trust? they are cooperative enough to work together with us as a team. but NOOOOOOO. THEY ARE LIKE ************. the only thing they do is say i love you to you and then to another girl. and laugh like crazy. I'm just so mad! you are just doing the part that we told you to do! is that so hard????????? just go and google it and you can find the info. Copy and paste, wala! you are done. SEE. IS THAT HARD?? I JUST FEEL LIKE KICK YOU OUT OF THE GROUP!!!! IF U SEE KAY.

with or without Internet, it feels the same .__.

2009-06-23T02:56:00.000-07:00

I'm just back from Miri. phew~ glad coming back. Now that i've came back. I feel like =.= grrr. wtheck??? no difference between with or without internet.

well, the first thing i did was go to facebook. more or less is sama sama saja. I went to his facebook profile. I saw his status. And everytime I saw it, I feel so bu suang. >___<>

i have enough of this feelings now. I MUST go on. i MUST be strong!!! lets bold, underline and itali "MUST" to make it feel stronger :D

you know what.....i feel down :( quite down actually. Must be just now went into his profile =.= curse him. >_________________<>

@.@ Pucca.....:3 i love that cartoon. She's so cute!

ahaahaa, i know i can get carried away. oh well, i have nth to say. byee

boring day

2009-06-16T07:17:00.000-07:00

wahh, another boring day that's what i will say. But tomorrow, i'm gonna be busy like hell! morning MATHS MATHS MATHS extra classes, and then 2-3.30 to tution, 2-5 dancing @___@ goddang. i have to tell tcher i will be back by 3.30 to catch up with dancing. GRRRRR. i found out that these days, teacher doesnt seem to have a good mood. I feel like she's mad at me for not doing a good job. Maybe she's tired. She IS very very busy lately. =( arghhhhh

man, si yee's got then 2nd place for mid-year T^T she has dancing, sport practices, homeworks, projects, test, tuition ..... AHHHH, she got like so many activities and yet she can get a no.2!!!!!!!!!!! T.T whyee???

and I can't hlp myself to go online and then to facebook(which these days has been so quiet and boring till have to go to friends' profile again and again) and then listen to Avenged Sevenfold's songs (which sometimes i listen till very sien liaw -.-) cant believe it eh... i just dont know what's wrong leh?? Now, facebook has nothing to do? and i have PMB above me. and the songs i have been listening to them like more than a 100 times =.=''' from tomorrow onwards, i hope i wont go online so often.

well, gtg niteeee

photos; >o*

2009-06-13T22:53:00.000-07:00

Pucca loves Garu <333 ^___^
when will i be meeting you again?

M.Shaows!!!!!!!!!!! (L) ^^ <33

During Children's Day Funfair, the boys want me to take photos

you can say all of them are perverts :D

yum!

lol, he's not my bf XDD

UPDATES!!!

2009-06-13T22:12:00.000-07:00

wow, it has been TOO LONG since i have updated my blog :S so, now i'm here updating it for you. heh.

as everyone knew already it's a holi-holiday! my whole family went to BSB today and left me and my maid at home. I insisted to stay since i wanna finish my homework. and i just wanna quickly done all those school work and then study. why can't i fell in love with books and studying?? T^T

days before, i have been listening to Lady gaga's songs and Avenged Sevenfold. omg, i fell in LOVE! WITH M.SHADOWS!!!!!!!>____<>

well, since i have nothing to say, let me upload some pictures :D in another post.

:(

2009-05-26T21:16:00.000-07:00

I have been really lazy and did VERY VERY VERY BAD in my midyear. Yeah, midyear is not over yet.

I felt that everytime i go to school, i thought i can always be happy about it but who knows it turned out so bad. I feel that kind of cold feeling. Not the kind of cold feeling that my classmates on the fan and air-cond at the same time and yet the weather is very cool. It's the kind of cold feeling that I being left alone. I don't know if it is me or what? I feel like I am the one who's wrong. I have been so left cold alone in one corner where no one wanted me. I can't feel friends by my side even when i burst out tears and they comfort me.

No, i'm still in my own box, can't figure out what should I do. I'm still in my box, I feel everyone is hating me when they are the one who's wrong. I have enough of unfairness around me and yet i have to shut the fuck up about it. I dont wanna be a coward. I just feel so confused, so confused.

Please tell me what's wrong with me?

I lost friends.
I don't have any good or best friends.
I dont know who are the good and the best friends.
I dont know who should i tell this about.
I just don't know.

I want Cynthia
I want Jvee
I want Vea
I want ......

I just want a friend who i can really tell them everything, every problems i have.....
the ones i want, do they understand me if i tell them?

i just feel like
i'm always the one who's wrong
im always useless
i'm always alone
there's no one else can help me now...

i try to let go all the past, try to be open, try to ignore all those shit, and bitches. i try to be strong...but i'm still weak

VERY weak...

okay I'm sorry to the guys then

2009-04-23T20:29:00.000-07:00

okay fine, I appologize to the boys in my class then, happy?
I'm sorry to the guys that i said you're bastards,etc, etc. But you have to admit that you all are wrong for making a fool of her.

you must be wondering why I have to say sorry to them, when they were the one who's wrong...
well, it's just that if i didnt apologize, i will have bad dreams.

guess they will never know eh? :

to readers

2009-04-18T06:57:00.000-07:00

i've completely lost my sense of writing my Zuo Wen right now. I just don't know what's my feeling. It's so unstable!

I keep on thinking of going back to the past. Going back to the time I was in KG3. maybe I won't feel so lonely after all? and going back to CHMS, bsb is my only main place that i really wanted to go. I wanted to see how things had change. Maybe it's better? Maybe it's worse?

I just wish i could go back in the time I haven't come to Kuala Belait. I feel so annoyed everytime. I don't even know why?!

My feelings are just too unstable right now.

dear bloggy

2009-04-13T04:02:00.000-07:00

i wish for a good results on mid-year exam.
i am wishing for good results for PMB
i am wishing for a new lover who will love me truthfully from the bottom of his heart.
i wish to get a free hug every single day of my lifetime

and yes, these are my wishes that i really want them to come true.

to God or readers.

2009-04-12T03:16:00.000-07:00

i never thought that i have a life of my own.
i have becoming so randomly mad. About everything. I feel like I don't have a life of my own. People around me are starting to fade away.

I dissapoint my parents, my friends, my teachers.
I think I bring badluck to the people around me.
There's no way any girls or boys will be my friends now.

to mom and dad:

2009-04-12T02:58:00.000-07:00

to mom & dad:
today, i feel sick of you 2 kept on babbling abt sports day. Well, comm'on! ONCE THE SPORTS DAY IS OVER, IT'S OVERRRRRRRRRRR. You 2 don't need to repeat what's going on or who or what's wrong blaaaaaa bla bla. Shit. And yeah, we learn from the mistakes in the sports day. So, stop complaining again and again. it's like you never have other subjects to talk about.

and one more thing, when we are on our way back to kb, i was sleeping and almost awake. I heard you 2 babbling about our girls in our house. Yeah, it's the truth that most of us do not know how to play badminton. SO WHAT?! you never know the coming years, there will be good badminton players(girls) who can fight for the house. And i over heard you 2 comparing the girls too. And till you made a comment abt me playing badminton, I CANT BELIEVE MY OWWNNNNNNNN PARENTS WILL SAY I PLAY LIKE SHIT?!!!! WTFFUUUCCCKKKKKK? Yeah, truth is i don't really know how to play badminton as well as the others. sooo what?!!!!???????? huh? you can say i am really bad, I dont play well in badminton, but WHY IN THE WHOLE FUCKING WORLD? DO YOU NEED TO SAY I PLAY LIKE SHIT????????????

that's why when we reached home today, I am so damn mad. Because of you 2, because of you 2 saying me playing like shit.

hey, when you read this blog, mom, dad, dont use an "Adult point-of-view" to tell me. And dont say if I'm like this, how can I go out to the society? Well, let me tell you one thing. This is not society. This is at home. And you 2 are my parents. Even my own parents, said that. MY OWN PARENTS???????? I think I deserve to live in a mental hospital.

Hope you understand, mom&dad.

=.=

2009-04-10T23:23:00.000-07:00

suckerssssssssssss.
why cant they just judge properly like an ordinary mannnnn?
=.= if u seeeeeeeeee kayyyyyy

:(

2009-04-06T21:51:00.000-07:00

i decided not to participate in the singing competition. Cos, seems like none of my classmate, wants me to. I have a feeling that, they don't like me. They hate to see my face. They dont want to heat me. I have the feeling that they dont want me to participate in the singing competition.

I just have the feeling that my classmates hate me. When teacher ask who wants to sing for the competition, many called nurrisa. only one called me. jealousy? maybe. but it doesnt feel like jealousy at all.

AHhhhhhh, please tell me, what's going on?

perfection

2009-04-04T23:50:00.000-07:00

sometimes, I just wish that I am perfect. No wrongs, everything is just right. Just perfect.

It's another day

2009-03-22T22:24:00.000-07:00

yup, it's another day. School, tuition, hmwk =___=
can i say this is boring? =o= later going to BM tuition. well, dont want to blog,
i just wanna post some pics >___o man i cant change my font!!!
well, here goes nothin' =)

Legos!

The lonely groom

The lonely bride

aint it sweet?

my 2008 valentine pressie

the loneliness

lol.

Vainers =p

If one day...

2009-03-18T05:04:00.000-07:00

If one day, I am gone....who will think of me first? you? dad? mom? him? her? I will never know the answer.

I wish you were here hearing me saying Iloveyou & imissyou.

I wish you were here to support me.

I wish you were here to hug me when I am feeling afraid.

I wish you would be the one that I trust.

I wish you would be the one that I can believe.

I wish you were the one that I can watch the stars with.

I wish you would never leave me.

I wish you will never go away from me.

I wish you could stay with me longer.

I wish I to be with you forever

I don't ever want you to leave me;

I don't ever me to leave you. :'(

the normalss

2009-03-18T04:38:00.000-07:00

well, let see:

Today is a Wednesday. CCA is cancelled, went for tuition, and just finished my dinner. I'm chatting with Cecilia.

Every lesson is usual? haha. only during Science class, I accidentally said Sugar Sugar Rune and WCJ heard it and asked me if I knew it? of course I know. It's just that I dont know the beggining, I dont know the end of the anime series XD and then we carried the books to the office and put on teacher's table and he kept on telling me about sugar sugar rune. i kept on laughing and cant stop smiling XD

Tomorrow, we will stay until 10am! yay! I hope that teacher won't be coming for class. and then it's the start of holidayyyyyyyyyy *slowly fades*..... hahaha NOT. That's the start of extra classes. oh my god.

I haven't finished my computer project, and a set of "RULES" have set up. My parents are having dinner at the school hall. It's for every teacher for the Chinese New Year thing and school Anniversary to thank the teachers for all the hard work. I felt unfair, cos the performers were not invited! I mean, we danced and sing too, we also did our part, why didnt the school invite us to the dinner then? =___= sheesh.

i wish to be liked and loved......=O

i feel like missing something.

2009-03-17T01:59:00.000-07:00

Everything is normal at school today EXCEPT Jvee kept on scaring me by sneeking behind me and BOO! =___= Thanks alot! now i feel like having heart attacks everytime! Really! Jvee, you're scaring my mood away!

I have geography notes that need to be done and computer projects that need to be done too. Errgh! what a bummer!

Well, I just feel like something ain't right. Something is missing. Something is just not right. I feel like I've lost something important. I feel like someone is missing in my puzzle piece. I just can't figure it out who or what is it?! =( Maybe friends that I need to be with? Friends that I can spend time with, friends that I can trust? Friends that I believe in, that I can learn from, that won't make me feel lonely no more.

I just dont know why? Time is so short, so many things are interupting. Whenever I wanna ask, I feel so shy. Whenever I wanna do it, I just don't dare. Sometimes, I say forget about it. Love is not my thing. Maybe, I'm just not ready for having relationships yet.

It's been 3 mths now and we hardly say something to each other like we are strangers or something. Maybe he's shy and still don't dare to talk to me? Maybe he's just try to ignore me? Maybe he's just wanna have his own way? I dont know, there's must be a reason.

I have been feeling like zipping my mouth and concentrate on my studies. But, somehow, it's impossible. Extra classes are coming, mid-year exams too. I just dont know where to start first???

Whenever he's online, I will always feel like so nervous! My personal message will be like gone crazy and so random till everyone thinks that have I gone nuts or something? I keep on adding him and delete and blocking him again and again and again.
I feel like so weird. I'm just not in the mood of being happy. Growing up keeps on depending moods =\, bummer.

sometimes, I just need to know, why?

Read from the bottom blog till up

2009-03-16T04:31:00.000-07:00

tomorrow we're gonna have Taking ClassPhoto! =\ i dont know whether to be happy abt it or not? cos, I thought this is taken in June or somewhere there? It's been brought earlier! Maybe tomorrow will have assembly again. There's a survey I have been thinking of making it since 1st term test and here I go, this is random, simply random!:

This is what I will think of. When i think of these things, I will think of my friends.
Avenged Sevenfold- Brody
Badminton pro - Jun Ze
King Kong- Kok Kin
Dinosaur- Joshua
Niro- Jvee
Nike- TYL
Sushiboy!- WCJ
Jack-Angel
Retarded Baboon(srry if wrong spelling)- Britney
scremo, rock lover- Cecilia
Fruit Basket- Si Yee
Boookssssss- Shi Ying
The comic-looking cartoons: Clarissa
snowy looking angels anime- Hui Yuan
Korea- Lilian & Rachel
Tsubasa Chronicles- LNY
Japanese rockers- Nurrisa
Neji- Shirin
Japan- Cynthia
Manga- Hui Ling
pink- kwang hoe

this is just "sui bian luan lai" survey. I will write a survey about our class one day.
this is will end my post today.

Dinochick

2009-03-16T04:09:00.000-07:00

This is "Dinochick". It is created by Jvee XD. Let me tell you what's about it!
It is a mixture of dinosaur as you can see with chicken legs and wings. Dinochick eats caramel banana and it hates apples!

It lives in a cave. "Hubba! Hubba!" is how it calls for a soul-mate. This dinochick has it's own language. The word "Hello" means I Love You in its language.

Dinochick can live about like......FOREVER! You will think that this "Dinochick" lay eggs but ...... you're wrong!!!!!!!!!!! It gives birth only once in a lifetime. The process of giving birth is always successful BUT the parents die after that.

It is the same size as a baby chick. And it won't grow up. It can't fly eventho it has wings.

It is well....invincible! It cannot be hurt. If you are too near to it, it will scream like a screamo, like a METAL HARDCORE ROCK SINGER to you!

i think that's all abt it XD. if there's any change, tell me!

oh dear!

2009-03-16T03:52:00.000-07:00

Yup, almost all the papers are coming back. And I ain't please with them. I still have corrections need to do. I'm gonna finish all the hmwk and corr. in one go!

Well, school, everything seems normal. Getting back our test papers like normal. Chinese went to the library to watch some Korean cartoon. Man, i mean, our class already have projector, so, why do we have to go to library? oh maybe bcos of the Chinese 2 students kua..... =\

Have P.E. and Maths this afternoon. everything is ok......i think. Oh yea! when we're having P.E. playing badminton not to mention, the F4 Sci's students and F4 Arts students are exchanging their classes. F4 Sci will go to 4 Arts; 4 Arts will go to 4 Sci.... *an evil grin for Shirin heh! heh!* I didnt play badminton tho. cos I'm suck at it =P

Just now done tagging a pic. Seriously, I just simply tag for a while. I'm gonna post as many posts as possible XD
this is the 1st one of today.

finally!

2009-03-15T07:29:00.000-07:00

oh god! FINALLY! I have time to blog!

well, 1st term is over, tomorrow we are gonna get the papers. And Mid-year is on its way. Seriously, I wanna work hard for Mid-year. So I dont wanna go internet anymore anymore!

My Form 1 Geo wkbk.......IT'S STILL LOST! till NOW =_____= mannnnn, where in the world? could it be????? T_______T

today, I went to BSB shopping, visit doctor again. Didn't get to buy sunglasses cos my mom dont allow.

I have so many things to blog about. Just that time is having a marathon with me. I think I'm gonna blog if i feel like it and have time! if not, I'm gonna use the old fashion way ;)

I'm tired now.
i'll blog again soon.

short brief of the past

2009-03-12T00:18:00.000-07:00

i just suddenly remembered the time when I was young in BSB.
I was one crazy little girl in tuition :) I dont know why, but yeah. My dad once on a tuition school, called the Wira Tuition School if not mistaken. And I still remember there are soooooooo many students and mostly are from Wen Zhong. You can say all of them are from Wen Zhong. DX How I miss the Tuition School!

I remembered I was a cry baby, I really cry alot.
And I gone a liiiiiitle bit small gas. I got angry easily, don't know why? o.o
So, I just wanna say I am very sorry to the ones who have gone tuition with me in BSB. I really do.

I miss being in BSB. ;(

D: bad news....

2009-03-11T23:11:00.000-07:00

well, today my commerce paper is back with me! and Mdm.wee said the trip is post pond. Post pond to when? Post pond till after our PMB exam =.= mannnnnn, eventho I think going to The Mall is boring but then, when it's going out to a field trip with your friends it's a different story! We all have been waiting for the trip for like a month? X____T now, we have to be patient till gila!!!!!!!!!!

clia lend me the GC's CD that her friend burned for her X3 yeah! Good Charlotte!
well, now, it's Geography and computer time D: 2 more days! then it's bye bye term test and hello kena doomed T____T

Gee :D

2009-03-11T02:10:00.000-07:00

Today, have chinese and MIB. and 4 more subjects to go and it's end of 1st term!!!!

well, let's get to the point shall we?
Today, this morning or should I say? I WOKE UP LATE!!!!! T_____T I WAS so shock! My maid was like singing when I was still on my bed? and then she woke me up and I was shock when she said I'm late and the bell had rung!!!??? it was 7.30a.m that time. So I washed up as fast as I could! and hurried to class. Luckily, the test hasn't begun! and when I entered the class, everyone is like whoa! and Jvee was sitting in my place. This is very 1st time in my whole life being late!!!!! grrrr!

and I am starting to accecpt Japanese and Korean songs ;D and also thanks to Brody, I fell in love with the songs sang by Girls Generation =o= oh well, it's time for me to try new things anyway. And I keep on wondering are they really that talented? I mean rather than dancing and singing. (oh, btw, their dancing are so cool!) 1st time using the word "cool" lol. Now I'm listening to one of their song called "Gee" X3 it's so addicting!!! and the MV quite cute tho in a point of view of a normal girl XD

I've been deleting and add him to contacts for 2 months or 3 if consider this mth. And now, I have deleted him and blocked him from my msn. I wanna stop looking his msn just for another year. Maybe this is easier to forget abt him ;) Sorry boy, but I have to. Besides, you dont need my love anymore.

ahhhh, trip! come to me now! ;D

continue?

2009-03-07T22:07:00.000-08:00

back!
yay, I'm back! to myself :) not a 100% but yeah. X)
I have thought for sometime now. I dont want to be a designer. I decided to be a photographer! A school photographer :D. Either in Chung Hua or Chung Hwa. >~<>

I remembered someone asked me where do you want to study after form 6. I have a long way to go, I dont want to think of form 6. Plus, can a Malaysian go to form 6 in Brunei? well, i dont know =)

I'm glad that, everything is alright? for now, i think...
I'm glad that I accepted the truth.
I wish that you all will always be by my side ;)

I've been thinking to have a study date. But then I dont know how? like how to get a study date? and where can we study together? hard leh!
Nigel said he will go to Maktab Sci or ...(I forgot what's the other school again) next year D:
pity rite? I keep on saying dont go la!!!!! and he answered me he is not the one who want to go. :(

well, I'm being so so sooooo random, here so...:
- I want school to allow us to bring mobile!
- I wish the school's new building will be built ASAP!
- I want to own myself a sony ericson and a Camera!!
- I wish to be a happy me!
- I wish I can go back to Wen Zong!
- I wish the field trip will be A.Okay ;D

I wont wait for the special one. I had accepted the truth that he has his own lover. Just let it be. I wont have your passion, I wont have your feelings. I just wanna be normal.

I think I'm okay now

2009-03-07T20:25:00.000-08:00

yeah. totally forgot about it now, even tho i still can see it o.o
well tomorrow is Prophet Muhammad's birthday. So it's a holiday. And one more week and it's the end of 1st term and the start of our trip!!!!!! yay!!!!!!

If we are allow to buy things in the Mall, gonna buy:
-> Sunglasses
-> pressy for mi and pi's anniversary

I think there's alot more :S omygod, now chang ma ma is chatting with me.
stop here now.

I will let it out once and for all, and forget like nothing happened

2009-03-07T18:36:00.000-08:00

I didnt really have a good Sunday morning. I havent start my study yet since my contoh karangan book is RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME?!

Jveeeeeeee, :( i always need your help. I have lost my laughter, i cant really smile or think anything positive and blaaaaaaa :( I was being complained the 1st time of my entire life by my commerce teacher. Well, if you think this is nothing, well you're wrong! This mean something to me. My parents of course were being informed and my dad is my class teacher? this is the worse of the worse!

since i have so many negative in my mind now, I'm just gonna let it out and wont remember it again:
SYJ, I dont know, she make me feel like killing her, slapping her face. She said my dad like out of nothing? mother fuck her.

I just dont like friends around me to insult or say my dad. But anyone cares? NoOOOOOOO. Cos, they think I'm invisble. Saying my dad like it's my fault, saying my dad right, right, RIGHT infront of me. It's been years since we are in the same class, and I've thought that I am getting not knowing how well is my class now. It's like everyone in my class are getting, i dont know...worse? Since the day I am being complained, I've been talkless. I dont want to talk to anyone, I keep myself shut.

Sometimes, I thought it was all my fault, being so negative, so aggressive. But then, sometimes it's the bitches around me think that they know everything. They are the best, like yeah, right. NOT. Why cant you bitches and bastards stop like you know......insulting and saying people around you? insulting and saying my dad and me?
I thought I am the one with problems.
Maybe I am
Maybe I am not
I just dont get it why?????? why do you all have to be like so out of respect? just out of disipline. Sometimes, I dont know why do I have to fight for my friends when they just make you the one being in trouble?
I just dont get it, should friends be like that? well i dont think so.

dead

2009-03-05T00:25:00.000-08:00

Just wish me dead, cos my history aint gonna get a good passing mark ;(((((

My malay, I think also NYAWA-NYAWA IKAN!

today had history and bm

and I am so not in a happy mood.

so gonna write this blog ASAP(As Short As Possible)

cos, i dont know. Cos, I'm not happy, I ain't satisfied.

people, I'm dead!

the randomness calls.....

2009-03-01T01:20:00.000-08:00

rainy day ;\
and I dont know but I'm starting to dislike history ;(

superhuman......please oh please bring me back to my old school.
I wish I have never been here?
But if I havent been here, how could I possibly know more about this world?

Let me be your friend
and I'll let you be my bestest friend
I will always love you and hug you like the teddy that I am sleeping with.
I love you more than ever.
I am glad to have you as my bestest friend
and the worst enemy.

Bring me back to where I belong
let us restart this game, shall we?

If one day, you found that I've already been to somewhere that you won't be able to find me, that can only mean one thing.
I've left you and please do wish me back to your side.
As your friend and your love.

oh my goddddddddddd

2009-02-26T06:00:00.000-08:00

eeeyeaa..... I can hardly have time to blogggg :( So many hmwks!!!!! why do they have to give so many hmwks when 1st term test is on its way????? X( arggghhhhhhhhh

well today, quite okay, i think. This days, lack of sleep, tomorrow friday class lagi :o dont they ever get tired of this? well, let's talk about school, roughly. Jvee drew this "Dino chick" on his table and omygod, i swear to you you will puke if you saw it! And then Cynthia got infected with this "Dinochick" drawing and drew on her test pad! NOOOOOOO!!!!!! XD

and then afternoon, I was quite gloomy blaaaa. When i reach classroom, I saw Si Yee quickly came out and told me:"They are having a concert in there." So, I went in and then heard wing tong and ckk are singing =____=''''' tian nah.....luckily i brought my mp3.heh. I wish I can have an ipoddddddd T___T oh ya, i forgot to mention that i was also lucky enough that to come to class early cos it was flooding AGAIN downstair of the hostel all the way to the canteen =__=

and then afternoon class, we have um computer 1st. That time, teacher was asking us if we have done our problem-solving or not. So Cecilia was one of the unluckiest one. So, she quickly do it. Then, when she reached the 3rd
one, that is implementation and wrote the example. One of her last sentence, she accidentally wrote a "=)" !!! and teacher was standing right beside her!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! XDDDDD and Cecilia and I were like laughing till crazy. I just can't stop laughing till now!!!!!!!!! XDDDDDDDDD oh my god!!!!!!!!XD

dont know if tomorrow have chinese class or not. -.- haizzzzzz, please say no. I'm having allergy of chinese language now T__O.

so, basically, thanks to cecilia, I found back my laughters and I'm okay. Not exactly 100% but yea. :D thank you!!!!

yea, I am mad about ppl in my class :@

2009-02-25T01:20:00.000-08:00

well, i had cca today that is just now at 4. Well, I dont know, but since yesterday's incident or should it be accident? I feel like I have forgot about him !! o.o but then again.....right now, I dont really keep on thinking about him. I just remind myself that he likes someone now(even if she rejected him, i think...) he wont pop infront of me and say "I miss you" bla.....

and then, I was still mad about nurissa. True, she is like so eeeeee beeiach. She becomes so spoiled, SO SPOILED that, she said wtf to me, and tell me dont label her. Well, she have done this like a few times but i know that is not "fuck me" it's a fuck without A "you"
well, few days back i sent her a comment in friendster and I just said that you look quite emo. And then she sent back with THE WORD "WTF?Dont label me!" then, i was like shit! I was so furious thattt....I replied back wtf?!o.o I didnt label you! And then she replied you said I'm emo. Then, I replied back, you look okay? you aint a emo. then she replied, "Well that is still labeling. Nevermind ^^"

after that I didnt even bother to reply or whatever. Well, she did say nevermind, but because of her "wtf" that she sent to me, I was and still angry about it. SHE IS SUCH A WHORY BITCH! =______= really, i cant take it. EISHHHHHHHIT! :@

and then is Yi Jiun. =______= this is even worse. No. Better than worse. She is the medium bad. ANYWAYS! back to the topic. She likes to say others, consider backstabbing alright? Especially say the teachers. YES! She is like, none of her business she also has to campur and ask what are you talking about if she saw you and someone else is whispering and talking without her. And remember that I said she always says the others especially teachers? AND GUESS WHAT? SHE ALSO SAID MY DAD. WHAT THE FUCK! TELL HER TO EAT HER ASS. That time, my dad was like scolding Jvee, and when Jvee is back to his seat, she was like why is he suddenly so mad ?(I translate to english) with the linc face or KL face. In my mind, I said, what the fuck? go and eat shit! MY DAD SCOLDED JVEE, there must be a reason, okay? dont always backstab my dad and other teachers, BITCH! EEESHHHHHHHH

yes, this week, I am very mad. I feel terribly mad with friendships and stuffs.
gonna stop here for a while. Hope you understand for the ones who knows me better.

gonna SAY IT OUT LOUD! D:

2009-02-23T02:03:00.000-08:00

Don't think I'm deaf, as I can hear you're backstabbing;
Don't think I'm blind, as I can see you are puting a fake smile on your damn face;
Don't think I'm stupid, you may never know I can kill you from behind;
Don't think I'm crazy, sometime I just want you to know that I'm always there and you just didnt even bother to notice.
Don't think, don't ever think .............. that saying fuck to me is the best way to cool yourself down. Cos, I can do the same thing to you too, if you yourself get me boiling hot.

well, I'm just letting out my anger to some of the things and people around me ;)
well, it's true that some ppl just dont think before they say the foul words to me.
Label you? well shut the fuck up. That aint consider labeling. You look like that, you are not like that. Okay?

I'm not saying the readers here, just some girls are sometimes to whory bitch :)
i know they are but what am I?

Happy National Day to Brunei! :D

2009-02-22T19:42:00.000-08:00

Happy National Day to our beloved Brunei! ^__^ today is a public holiday, meaning no school :) tomorrow, maybe have assembly :o

This morning, I woke up with the song that Jvee introduced to me. It is by Caramelldansen. And I kept on having that song in my mind the whole morning! thanks to Jvee, he got addicted and I've got infected! -.- Currently I'm listening to Digital Love by Daft Punk again :D

what? I love their song like hell much? XD

I've found out that, follow your own schedule, it feels like being handcuffed with the time of the clock. you have to follow with it. It ain't gonna give you any mercy to do anything :S So today, I didnt follow my schedule, moreover I didnt even schedule anything for today! So yea. Time to go with the flow? Maybe.

I'm gonna listen to Seize the day by AX7 again(2nd time) i dont know why but, sometime I hum the song, if I'm bored =___=? yea, feeling weird.

Today, nothing special happen tho. Last night chatted with Jvee till 12 smt. That was the 1st time of this year :D hope i wont do that again -___-

Gonna have lunch.

See ya!

survey :)

2009-02-22T03:01:00.000-08:00

1. Cynthia, Shirin, Wing Tong
2. Le Hui, Ji woei, Derrick
3. Kwang Hoe, Zi Ying, Em sham
4. Jvee, TYL, Josh
5. Lilian, Rachel, Clia, Clarrisa
6. Ngah Yuk, Jennifer
7. Hui Ling, Shi ying
8. Si Yee, Yvonne
9. Daft Punk

How you know 1?
~ Cynthia: since pri3 in Chung Hwa Middle School
~ Shirin&Wing Tong? when I came to KB in 2oo5 :D

What would you do if you never met 2?
~ My life will be bored! total boredness!!

What would you do if 3 & 4 dated you?
~ nah, they won't :)

Would 5 & 6 make a good couple?
~ nope. They ain't lesbo la!!! no offence.

Do you think 7 are nice?
~ no comment.

Do you know anything about 8's family?
~ err, not really. heh.

Tell me something about 9.
~ i LOVE them!!!!!!!!! they sing my fav. song.wahha :D

What language do 2 speaks?
~ Chinese, English, Malay, Japan? Korea? all sort la

Who are 3 going out with?
~ no one i guess. Except friends and families la :D

How old are 4?
~ Jvee and TYL: coming 14 lo
~ Joshua? coming 15 lo

5?
~ same la, coming 14 and 15 :D

Who is 6's favourite singer?
~ no idea!

7?
~ tak tahu beh!

Is 8 single?
~ pure single XD

What is 9's last name?
~ It's Daft Punk so i guess, Punk is the last name? ;o

Would you consider being in a relationship with 1?
~ maybe. hhahaaha. no la ;D

Which school do 2 go to?
~ one is Sayyidina Ali, 2 are Abu Bakar

What do you like about 3?
~ i wanna go back to chms BSB!!!!!! D:

no more turning backs for every little single thing

2009-02-22T02:37:00.000-08:00

Yup, i wont turn back. Whatever little thing happened, just let it go. It aint use to hold them back. :) Yea, whatever it happened a year ago or just about 30 minutes ago, I will let them go with the flow, and wont hold them back.

whatever happened to him, i will not care. As he wont bother to care about me anymore. Just let him like the girl he wants, I wont care. I wont turn back, I wont look back. I will have to look forward not back.

put a smile on my face, iloveyou.

YAY! I can't wait! ^^

2009-02-20T21:34:00.000-08:00

yay! I can't wait for this coming thursday! We're gonna go for a field trip to BSB!! I hope we are all in the same bus and the bus is a good and a big one XS

well school is quite alright, we are suppose to have extra class this afternoon but then Eng tcher is still sick :( and BM, i dont know why tcher cancel our extra class :\ oh well.

I am so glad no more short test but oh nooo, 1st term test is on its way T_______T. Man.... I really need to study hard now! well suppose to study hard already at the beginning of CNY =__=. I am having a bad hair day and pimple craze :O really, my forehead is almost covered with pimples and my dad said I am growing. haha.

Sometimes, I kept on telling myself, why do I have to even bother him when he has someone else already? i kept on shook my head and remind myself, get over with it already! Move along, enjoy life, listen to music just like what my friends advice. He has someone else now, he doesnt need me anymore, so dont even bother to, you know, care if he is thinking of me or looking at me or not.

Currently I'm listening to One More Time by Daft Punk. OOhhhh, so in love with this song. Actually, i've heard it since I was young. So, this was and still is my fav song :D. Now i want SUNGLASSES!!!! and shutter shades. XD

O.O NO NO NOOOOOO, DONT THINK ABOUT HIM!!!!!>________T PLEASE HELP ME! I NEED TO GET OVER WITH IT PLEASE!!!!

oh yea, and today, my group C kept on discussing different subjects like 1stly we talked about Michael Jackson and then pancakes and then crabs, cancer, bla bla bla lol. We are being random cos we kept on changing the subjects! wahaha. Oh another thing, I am not happy with my malay test :((

Yay! we're gonna change places next week! ^____^ hmm, maybe next week is quite ok afterall, maybe. We're gonna play Dare or dare on the bus!!!(hopefully we f3A boys and girls are in the same bus!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!PLEASE!!!!!!)

GONNA DO MY COMP PROJECT AND STUDY! BYE!

I am feding up with all those hatings and lovings/liking stuffs, you heard me!

2009-02-19T00:44:00.000-08:00

yes ppl. I am getting sick of Loving or having relationships and all. I am feding up! cos, it makes me feel left out and I felt so stubborn just by listening to love things or friends saying you like him? you like her? he/she is bla bla blaaaaaa =_____= I am TRYING to get over him! okay? I just wish him dead or wish he had never appear in my life or I have never like him before. Cos, these days since 14th of Feb, I felt being ignored and dumbed like a rubbish. Like I am nothing for him ANYMORE! I am so hating in my entire life! I dont know how do I get over with Jun Ze when I was in Form 1 =__=''' well, whenever i ACCIDENTALLY looked at him, he made me think of he himself with Michelle. Sheesh. I just dont know. I felt so like a used up botol, done with the drinks in the botol and throw the botol away. If he wants another one, FINE, he can go and buy and have another new drink for himself; the new botol is Michelle and I'm the old one.

SCHOOL:

school, today is quite okay for 1st 2 periods. We have BM test! T____T I dont know my perumpamaan and perembahan Brunei! and i think I won't get a passing mark, a good one that is. hmm, what else. We have one period of chinese, so yea. YAPPY!tomorrow's chinese class is canceled! thank godness!

After Chinese is ENGLISH and we have 3 FULL PERIODS OF IT!!!!!!and more over, teacher wasnt feeling well, so she aint coming for school. So that means = FREE PERIODS. lol. During the free periods, I read a book which Jvee borrowed from someone else, I forgot the title but I remembered it's abt a man who is borned really old. Like, he 一身下来is a verrrrrryyyyyyy old man and then as time pass, he grew younger and younger. The ending is quite sad tho =( He became smaller and smaller and finally disappears.

and then I wasnt in a very good mood. I was feeling desperate and angry. well,

1st thing: Kok kin's stupid truth or dare angered me. He told Lilian that to say "I HATE YOU" to me as a dare. I know it's a dare, but dont you think he is fucking stupid? okay, i know that Lilian is just saying it, she didnt mean anything, it's just a dare, it's not from her. But this message, this 3 words meant that Kok kin hates me. Seriously dont you think? the dare delivered his message to me that he hates me. See? isnt he such an IDIOT, moron? man, really, it's not that i'm sensitive but really.F_ _ _ him.
2nd thing: i have no idea....

then, my depression was gone for a while thanks to my class! Nurrisa they all and the others(the boys) played "Truth or Dare", and mostly they make were dare. And their darings are so hilarious!!!! so funny! Even shi ying laughed! XD thanks guys! Eventho you were all sometimes(most of the time) were anoyying and noisy and all, but you make life interesting too. >____<

Then, Cecilia was being so random! and I was being so in love with SHUTTER SHADES!!!!!!!!!!!!! PEOPLE REMEMBER!!!! I HEART SHUTTER SHADES NOTTTTT Body glove, okay? XD

We had Xtra classes since last week, Thurs noon, Fri morning & Saturday noon! OMG~ plus i have tuition lagi@__@ warhhh. And we have the computer project, i just started to do the cover, but i really have NO IDEA abt the contents and all!!!!, later on i'm gonna do it!

hrmmmm whatelse? oh ya! the last 2 periods, we had commerce. We all were so 乖 for the 1st period by not making so much noise, the next period we watched nurrisa they all to play truth or dare. XD it was so funny, especially Joshua jumping infront of the class and cover his chest. XD wahahahaa

On the 26th, we will be going to BSB! for a field trip. I wanna go RBC!!!!!!!!!! but then we are going to the Mall if not wrong =_____= it's so boring in the mall!

and um..... i think that's all for today. I need to schedule my time. But it seems like I'm not catching up with it. I'm gonna update my blog when i feels like it :).

I want:

-to get 9As( 2 is the best, i dont want 1. hehe) [gonna work hard!!!!!!!!!!!!]

-to have my own Sony Erricson mobile!!!!!!!!T___<

-to have a shutter shades of my own! XD

-spend my time with friends

-all my classmates to be good

-study like a nerdy
-make a survey when i wanna do another blog!

I HATE HIM!!!!!!!HE MAKES ME FELT THROWN AWAY AND USELESS. I WILL NEVER EVER WANT TO FALL IN LOVE IN MY ENTIRE LIFE! =__________= :@

i LOVE shutter shades ;)

I Hate Her That's Why I Say Fuck Her

2009-02-12T20:01:00.000-08:00

I am so hating my chinese tcher darn hell much!!!!!!!Seriously! FROM THE VERY BEGINNING OF SCHOOL REOPEN I myself already dont like her.
1. She can't get student's attetion.
2. She jumps here and there, from this chapter and then to another chapter. Like we have chp 8 first and then chp2.
3. She is just too bitchy.
4. She is kinda like backstabbing the tchers, telling cold jokes is one of it. The cold jokes are OVER-FREEZING =_____= and it was too BACKSTABBY. So yea, i think she's a backstabby bitchy bitch. I just dont get it whyyyyyy in the world, shi ying think she's good? One word whenever i thought of this, Ass.
5. She always underestimate us, especially the boys.
6. She gives the B class the easy way and always give us smt different. My dad said that's not wrong. I WAS LIKE WHAT THE KCUF????? HEY, WE ARE STILL GONNA WRITE THE SAME PAPER, AND WE ARE STILL LEARNING THE SAME THING. WTF DO YOU MEAN SHE IS RIGHT? SHE IS 100% TOTALLY WRONG!!!! true, that the B class are worse and all and we are better but dont you think it's quite unfair? they have to take the easy way and we have to take the hard way....=____= we are in the same subject, learning the same thing and gonna write the same paper.

today's friday class, i had chinese for last periods. I think most of the people had choosen the correct path, didnt go for her class. MAN, why do i have to be so obedient?shit. and moreover, the " and " that is 开鹰号(kai ying hao). Is there any wrong? i know shuang ying hao is also correct but i just dont know why she said i'm wrong and then correct and then wrong?

oh no, parents are coming gtg ..!

@_______________@ wahhhhhhHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

2009-02-10T00:50:00.000-08:00

F3A welcome me with their noises, how thoughtful...not.
well, some of my friends asked me how am I and I'm glad they ask...WELL, anyway.
I had fever since Monday morning. And I have alot of homework that need to be done!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
well, i went to ICC, and OMG! THE PLACE WHERE WE WERE DANCING IS HUGE! i'm kinda sa kai...
and then i saw Lai Boon Keat, the other one i forgot(his name ends with kai, i think...and he is kinda akua liaw), hui ruan and zi ying. ^^ so happy to see them again!
and on Sunday and Monday we were travelling by bus to and back from ICC. And both trips going back to school, Wayne and Nuraini followed us in the bus. And guess what, on Sunday night, me and Von kept on looking at Wayne when he was asleep and then we kept on giggling. Boys are so cute when they are asleep X3
hmm. there's alot more that i want to tell, but i need to be fast today in blogging.
so bye.

i miss you

2009-02-05T18:04:00.000-08:00

i miss you...=(

CNY, Chap Goh Meh!!!! =D

2009-02-04T22:49:00.000-08:00

Weather: RAIN, RAIN and guess what MORE RAIN!

Today, no lesson!!!! cos Chap Goh Meh, we all went to the hall, to see lion dancing, the calligraphy writing and also "cuo tang yuan" + orange peel arrangement! XD quite fun and noisy at the same time.

for the Lion dance, omg! there were 2 little lions! one is pink, the other is blue. So kawaii!!!! and then there was a little boy, kindergarden to be exact knew how to play the drum! Lion dance de drum la. And he was sooooooo cute! X3

there was also wu shu,3 girls one boy. But then they were all wearing school uniforms, so i think it was unconvinient for them to do the moves.

Cclia was taking photos for the whole morning. I took some photos after the 1st recess.
well, there were some ppl from Taiwan came to our school today. Nothing special actually.
only it keeps on raining till now.

hmm...I found that, Yvonne also like Brody. Well isnt it? cos if not, why is she so excited whenever I said I received his SMS? and why will she took his pic using my cam just now when i was taking pic?(in the class)

Oh well, i dont know. I wont let him like someone else (but me)[selfish eh XO]
but then again, he likes someone else more than anything :S

and mannnnnn, i've got 2 pimples! DX I look so UGLY!!!!!T.T
i know this is puberty but i dont like pimple on the face and lips! =_______=

well, there is so many things to talk about but then nothing can describe my feelings right right now. Pics, i will load all of them in my friendster profile

the very 1st time :O

2009-01-28T00:17:00.000-08:00

yup, today, only 6 plus me = 7 of us came to school....wow. the very 1st time! Even the Malays and Indians didnt came for school =o= they also celebrate CNY meh??? lol. some are lazy, some open house, some .... dont know la.

Well, it's so quiet during recess since there wasnt many ppl in the class also in school. Ohya, btw, the F5sci are much "pro" NONE came for school. NONE! N-O-N-E! no one came! no wonder i saw a class which is like inside was there a black out or smt? actually no one came!!!!

hmm...wonder how's tomorrow gonna be like...better?worse?or the same? well, i'll have to find out.

T__T i wanna go bai nian!!!!!!!!!get more angpao!!!!! less is more, i know.....but i still wanna get more!!!!

gonna change my blogskin :D

*i'm not in the mood of doing my homework, but i have to!!!!!!!!!*

Happy Niu Year! XOX

2009-01-27T01:40:00.000-08:00

happy chinese new year! yay! today's the 2nd day of CNY. tomorrow will be going back to school :( aww! but tomorrow many of my classmates wont be coming! so i dont know what will tomorrow be like :)

well, yesterday and today spend time at home...kua.... :P i've got ang pao! yay!
well, i did take some pics....so...enjoy ;)

Muahaha, cny cake! yummy! ^^ 2 cheese cakes and a black forest

wahaha, daddy and my bro. like the drinks?

I'm a photogenic! :D

Before Cny. me and my youngest. WAhahaha, he's a photogenic! XD

i'm moodless

2009-01-23T03:31:00.000-08:00

i lost my mood, i just dont know why?
chinese new year is coming, test is tomorrow @___@ man, i dont know!!!!!!!!!!
i think i'm missing a puzzle piece in my heart or in my life.
i went and say i'm hungry but i aint :O
i am starting to feel jealous and so agressive urgh!
i feel so like mess up, i cant find my way again T_________T
depression much....

i dont feel any much of excitement for chinese new year...
i've got a bad hair day
i found that when i get angry, i do look funny... @o@
i try to forget him, you know what, Jvee is right. It's better to leave Brody. It's good for him; it's good for me. I dont even have to be so stupid and all. He likes Michelle more than anything...i kept wondering....wow, you like her so much? more than anything? ha. i never heard you saying that to me before.

i dont know, what's bugging me, him or depression day?
well, gonna off my computer and study orelse i will be like internet addict....

bitches

2009-01-17T00:55:00.001-08:00

yi jiun is such a bitch
she is such a bitchy bitchhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
fuck her

obession

2009-01-15T07:10:00.000-08:00

i'm in love with "Photograph" by Nickelback. OMG, it sound so true....
well, today....not a good time at school in the morning. For my last 2 periods i have Comm, and i cant absorb anything. Cos, the boys(2 to 5 of them) got the case of the girls' giggles.... i was mad. Well, the rest i dont wanna tell it.

Then, we had the Work Party this afternoon and can we say it's fun? haha. i know mostly everyone enjoy it..... somehow....i suddenly was so mad about Hui Ling's attitude....o.o (Shirin, please this is between you and me, if you're reading this) Cos, she's suddenly so so soooo childish??? i tried to be not so serious towards the people around me....just dont care about them. I found that i'm really keh po and i know it's bad =____=''''

Jvee told me to change back, which i dont really quite listen to him. I decided not to change back. But then for being mad and all, that one I can think of changing it. Jvee also tell me to leave Brody alone, if i still care about him. You know what, i feel like he's trying to tell me, stop going near Brody, orelse I will be in trouble. By the trouble i mean friends will be like his bodyguards and try to stop me and all...o.o i dont know why did i have this kind of feeling....

Just now, Brody chatted with me, asking me why am i so down? (wahaha, so glad he ask <33)>
Brody: why are you do down?
me: i dont know
me: just tired i guess...
Brody: probably
Brody: so, who's the one you're so close to (i just sumarized his sentence)
me: (i forgot....)
me: i wasnt with anyone close ... o.o?
Brody: brb
me: ok
me: brb
Brody: back first
(lol, i remembered some la, i wont write it in too detail)
so i asked: you were asking who was i so close to?
Brody: i was asking you
me: oh
me: a person
me: :P
and then.....he tell me to be specific. T.T man! that's what all the tchers said!!!!! be specific! and then i just wont tell him. he kept on asking and asking. Haha, actually it was him. I was sooooo close to him! I just want him to guess :D i wasnt close to anyone. I was almost close to him :D and suddenly, he went offline.....=( maybe the connection is bad...? well, since he suddenly went off, so yeah, possible it's the connection.

i think sleeping time for me now
cant wait for him, can i?
:D

i cant help it!

2009-01-10T03:25:00.000-08:00

brody brody brodyyyyyyyyyyyyyy lalalalalala =P
i loveD you so much?
or
i lovE you so much?
i dont know
it's soooo complicated

probs. :(

2009-01-10T01:26:00.000-08:00

man, sometimes, i really wish to send comments to his friendster, but he never replies me :( and i'm afraid that....if i send too much comments to him, he might wonder why? and i might be afraid that he will get annoyed....:(

boy, dont ever think that i had never miss you before. I missed you sooooo much before....
nowadays, i feel like i need someone to talk to, i need someone to know what i'm really thinking.

天天看着你走, i feel like man, i wanna poke you like right now? haha
complicated kua..... @__@

rainin D:

2009-01-10T00:17:00.000-08:00

yup, the whole school day kept on raining today. last night, it rained so heavily that the school flooded and the water pump went wrong D: and i couldnt go to the wash room. damn it =__= then, 6 smt like that, there was still no water and i have to go to the tcher's wash room but when i got there, the water was back =O= wtf?! i was like so mad.

after that went to school. School started. We had M.I.B for the 1st 2 periods and tcher didnt come for class! :D but we didnt have any tchers to look after us tho... was that a good news? haha. and then recess. Well, the rain continued to rain again during recess and that time, the wind blew the rain and it blew quite strong that i was quite wet =____= and after recess we had Sci. Man you should look at the boys.....so EXCITED about pg20 of our Sci text book.....@___@ i dont even know how will be my reaction?! i cant laugh, i cant say eww, i can only stay calm ..... X__X oh well...guess we'll see that next week.

then we had B.M, but tcher didnt came for class today so we have free periods! ;D and, i've got a feeling that ACCC(shirin, you should know who is this), is like...liking me or something. i mean, EWW!!!!!!!!!!! he's so yuck! freaking annoying sometimes.... and he acts like a freak! hello! no boys wanna sit behind me unless they have crush on me or they have no where to sit. Well, i dont care. I rather have crushes on my ex than a weirdo ;D

i have maths hmwk that i need to do but i'm so not the mood to do it :( really, suddenly i felt like i am being loosen. and then next week there's a history test DD: eeeesh! i suddenly dont wanna read history =( but it's for my own A's sake!!! now, i'm freezing burrr~~ :S

i've got lots of presents from my friends this month! <33>

i think i'm gonna end here first =P

school is quite ok....:O

2009-01-04T22:24:00.000-08:00

today at school, hmm...my dad i my class tcher. I know "some of them "(including some girls) dont like it. Hey, at 1st i was like why my dad???? why cant change someone else. Slowly, i think i may be getting use of that... well, today we stayed till 12.45pm can i say it was a bad news? well for some of my classmates i think.

Let see, Brody......hmm......he...ah.........is in F3A. And my god.....his face is so fair!!!!!!! is like he didnt even go outside the sun for once?! I feel like he's got snow white's skin =___='''' XDDD yup, i'm mentioning his name now so....the ppl who know me, will know who is he :D
He is....i dont know....taller?? :S i really didnt notice cos i didnt take a real look at him, but i know he has gone bigger(his body that is) and i'm glad he's still have his haircut.....lol cos that hair cut suits him? haha.

Well, my classroom changed to last year's f4sci de classroom. =_= how come they changed at last minute? oh well. and then something very weird happened this morning. Wherever i go, there are, how to say....印度students(especially primary) and they are new students in our school....OH MYGOD...... Oh ya! dont forget about the new teachers! they are some new ones, i know there is a new maths tcher. He's a male. Well, we'll see him on the stage during assembly and we're gonna listen to "that four words" well that's a good thing, isnt it??

And i noticed 1 thing. For every tcher who entered our classroom the 1st thing is about P-M-B ....the more they said the more i'm afraid of it. really, PMB sounds real scarry.

there's so much to do, isnt it? currently today doesnt have many hm/wk. At night i have dance practice @@ omg .......
there's so many things happen today at school.
currently, i havent say anything to him.

ok....stop here for now. hahahaha XDDD

school is reopening soon!!!

2009-01-04T02:58:00.000-08:00

tomorrow school lo! And i have to wake up early! T.T 下午就跳舞，然后就去shopping with my mom, in Soon Lee. well, for dancing starting from tomorrow night!! wow....god i will be like Internet free, cant go internet liaw!!! For shopping, i bought some CNY 的衣服. quite ok la. and then we went to Milimewah and then Nanyang to buy gift for shi ying and LNY.

you should see all the places we have been to. It was like rush hour!!!!!! everyone was hurrying to buy all the things, i think is for tomorrow gua... Even Nanyang, ppl still go there and buy gifts!! and the ppl who were wrapping the gifts were also very busy :O well, my mom and I were the last one left Nanyang. after that, we came back.

when i came back, my bro keep wanting me to go for a jog with him. i mean OMG, this late? go jogging? =__= then i say ok ok la, just 1 round only! and so we did. man, i'm worn out :

now have to check my bag ... gtg
if i have the time, i will blog soon....
BYE PEOPLE!!!

i dont sweat alot :O

2009-01-03T06:30:00.000-08:00

i just read a topic abt exercise in my english text bk. I realized.....i dont sweat alot! i mean, i really did some exercise E.g: dancing, jogging and badminton. Whenever i did exercises, i dont really sweat like hell much!!! T.T i do miss the time i m energetic tho. that's the most fun time to me la.

I think if i wanna play badminton, i gotta play with my parents ONLY, no friends, no tchers, no others no one else!!!! cos i will get nervous if friends look at me. Playng badminton is not my thing. So i just simply play it cos it's just for fun :D

well stop here =D gonna read the books

phew, exausted!

2009-01-03T00:39:00.000-08:00

well, i just came back from dance practice. Phew, my hands has been shievering....like omg? i think i'm back to my mood now hehe. My family has gone to Hua Ho at Tutong for shopping :\ well, i only bought let see...1 long sleeve t-shirt, a pair of pants and a pair of Adidas shoes for Chinese New Year. 我只买了一套过年衣 :( 本来妈妈今天是要带我去Hua ho go shopping and then buy me 其他的衣服. But then i have dance practice, so she went there without me :\

等一下就要去洗澡，一阵身汗，臭死了!!!

i know my english is not that good that's why i use some chinese, or else i'll ended up broken english XD

hmm, nth exciting happen tho. My hands feels like shivering all the time @.@ help......
well, gtg shower now
i know my blog doesnt link =__='''
bye!

i feel like vomitting

2009-01-02T18:14:00.000-08:00

i think i just lost my appetite. I had my breakfast like an hour ago. I dont know but really it's sickening. I feel like ee......@____@ Now, i'm reading "The Fan Club". Actually, it's a novel. It's my aunt's. Well, i secretly borrowed, since this book well, can say it's my type. and um...it's as thick as a dictionary.....:O 600+ pgs and i only read till 250+ =___='''

my bros are watching Ben 10 Alien Force on tv and it has been repeating the same epds like every time i watch it or switch to CartoonNetwork.....

Well, i'mma gonna stop here, later in the afternoon i have dance practice o-o
reading my book now
bye!

New shoes! and others XD

2009-01-02T04:20:00.000-08:00

yo ppl, yeah, i m posting again.. hhaa, well, i like blogging ba. And i forgot to post this blog. Well should we start? let's go! XD

Well, should i say last year(31.Dec.2008) my family and I went to BSB to shop for CNY shoes :D for me and my bros that is....hehe. First we went to First Emporium, shop for notebook for my dad and i bought myself the papers for making stars =D

and then we went to Hua Ho at Manggis. My parents bought light bulbs o.o and we were also looking for presents for my niece cos that day was her birthday ;D but failed :( after that we went to lunch and go to the second First Emporium, somewhere near the Hua Ho, Manggis. My bros' shoes were bought in there. (btw, i'm just writing whatever i remember and also i went to visit the doctor before going shopping;P)

and also we went to Sin kew hin to look for my new year shoes. I saw some which look like converse shoes(sneakers), i asked my mom can i have that kind of shoes, she then said:"Hah?! that's the old fashion shoes!" That's the shoes which my mom used to wear when she's a kid to go to school! my dad then said that it's true the shoes(converse shoes) are the shoes which were wore by the olden days. And he mentioned that it was expensive so he didnt get to wear it. So, we went to The Mall to search for my CNY shoes and we success! bought an Adidas shoes with blue stipes ^^ suddenly, i like it! After that, we quickly go to Jaya to find a present fo my neice XD *=___= let's use some chinese* 我们就送她一两小车for her to sit on and play around in the house and a kind of toy which you get to play dress up for your doll.

after that we went to my niece's bday party. It was at a restorant which i dont know 它叫什么名字. We went up and into a special room for my niece's party. By the time we went in, she was crying like MAD crying. And the room was like oh my god, hell noisy =__= no wonder she's crying. That's when me and my parents found out that she doesnt like noises. She likes to be in a quite and peaceful place. We had dinner there and without eating the cake we left. Phew! how glad! and i felt sorry for my niece :( she didnt have a peaceful party till she went home with her mom 1st and she finally stop crying.

after that, we were on our way home, stopped by in another hua ho and cont our way home. By the time we reach Tutong, it was raining heavily @__@ wow so heavy... and i chatted with my ex in mobile for awhile cos the mobile was low batt. haha XD.

well, that's abt it. think gonna stop here.

如果我是一位男孩

2009-01-02T02:44:00.000-08:00

我突然之间非常的不爱笑，讲话也不link。我是不是被他的话给迷住了？我也不懂。Man, i'm gonna get crazy!

我又咳嗽了。真的，咳嗽对你来说是小事，可是对我说是EEEEE irritation!!!! 这并不是那种普通咳嗽，因为我一咳就咳得很厉害。所以呢，我不能呆在太冷的地方，也不可以呆在太dusty 的地方。有时候，我就想也许这就是为什么我会住在Borneo 了吧。。。

dinner time.
stop here.

3 more days till school

2009-01-01T21:02:00.000-08:00

well, today....let see havent been doing much things tho. I went to friendster but it seems so damn boring :O really, no one send comments to me plus getting sick of it. So, I did some simpulan bahasa :D cos, getting sick of going online ba. No one to chat with, going friendster no one send me comments Zzzz...

hmm..... ...... ...... well, after lunch i played the rubix(srry if wrong spelling) cube for a while @.@ man, it's tuff. Tomorrow having dance practice @_@ should i say "yay!!!" or what? =S

last night, i had been acting strange after taking my medicine. I chatted with Ethan and Shirin and omg, i was weird. So i quickly said bye and went to bed.

Now, i'm listening to "Dance Floor Anthem- Good Charlotte". Seriously...i dont wanna be in love, that's why i've been listening to this song. I rather have crushes than in relationship or better be single. It's raining heavily outside... every afternoon there will be heavy rainfall...

well, pics ah....i'm lazy to post. i felt dangerous to post if some somebody is here =____=...
i think i'm gonna use chinese to write my blog. For now, let's just say, stop here =D if there's pic, see if i wanna post or not la

at last did some exercise :D

2009-01-01T03:37:00.000-08:00

just finished dinner =D
well, at last i did some exercises. Jog a little with my bro and simply play badminton with my dad and broXD of course, i'm bad, i couldnt even catch it for the 1st few times... whereas, my bro, he played with my parents, he could hit the shuttle cock!!! hey, not bad for a kid.

well, that's all going to post. man i, talk alot sometimes....=__= one day, i have to post so many blog XD well currently nth to post so end here =P

i dont wanna turn back, man....it sucks!

2008-12-31T21:53:00.000-08:00

oh god, i really dont wanna do the same mistake! My ex chatted with me for the last 2 days... :( and he said he missed me and he want to 跟我和好.... i was like... ZZzz....i didnt say yes and he didnt seems like he's serious....

he called me his Bby?! like he used to call me! dang it! well....i dont know...the time he said he missed me, i really really want to say, boy, i missed you like for abt months ago! and now u said this right now? i think you've got the wrong time.

i cant say it's over....ARGH!!! ENOUGH! I DONT WANNA THINK ABOUT IT.

well, our classroom is now at my F!A classroom....=o= dont know why they keep on changing, but i think it's cool...=)

i had a peek in our classroom since the window wasn't locked...heehee.. and man it's dusty! and the tables are T.T seperate.....cant it stick to 2 of them...? maybe, maybe not...

my dad has been a chinese chess addictor...=p= he spent his holiday playing chess, chess, chess, chinese chess....... XD well, i dont know, he loves to play chinese chess.

well...i think i will online at night la...see 1st =P

i might have asthma

2008-12-31T19:42:00.001-08:00

yeap, i might have asthma, as my title said... well, yesterday i went to the doctor...and he said i might have asthma. Well, he said i have to finish the medicine, yeah, all of them, see if i really get it. If i finished the medicine and found that i'm ok....meaning i've got asthma :(

well, that's the point....

anyway.....4 more days till school reopen!!! wow....!!!!! I FORGOT!!!!!! I HAVENT TIE MY NECKTIE YET!!!! Well :D later i wil write more...now .....TIE MY NECKTIE 1ST!!!

Xp

a new start

2008-12-31T08:36:00.000-08:00

A new start from now.
ok, write later.
nite!